Suffocating

​”Today I woke up feeling heavy again,

Unable to breathe,

Not because of the asthma

But this burden of heaviness

 like someone’s sitting on my chest and choking me. 

The crying is normal now. 

I am like an overflowing faucet,

Drowning in my own wreckage of hopelessness. 
My mind refuses to stop over thinking. 

My mind racing as if on acid. 

Drugs,

This body hasn’t been intoxicated by stimulants for four years now. 
Intoxicated…maybe, 

My mind corrupted by my own self- flagellation. 

My own righteousness of degrading insecurities. 

My own demons eating whatever hope there is left inside of me. 

My high of pain never wearing off. 

Suffocating.

Shaking. 

Sweating. 

Unable to move my limbs

I can feel this void increase. 

Staring into the abyss 

Staring into Nothingness.

I can see my self suffocate to death. “- Natasha noel

Practise daily. Stay safe. Stay humble.🙏❤ Much love😊🙏

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