Sometimes I feel I could do better.
I could do more.
But the void never leaves me.
The emptiness remains.
The sadness a lingering enemy.
I still feel lonely in a crowded room,
Or at my lovers laugh.
So I do more.
I do too much.
Till a point I start burning out.
But I continue,
Because now I am used to running away.
Running away from my problems.
Running away from life.
Running away from my own self.
I don’t know what else to do!
So I drown myself in work.
I submerge myself in meaningless sex.
I bury myself in food.
I’ve fallen so deep I can’t pull yourself out anymore.
So I keep working.
And now I have everything I thought I wanted in life,
Knowledge as vast as the ocean.
The perfect body,
More wealth than I can imagine.
Family that is kind to me.
A sweet lover in my arms.
I still feel like something’s missing…” -Natasha Noel
Practise daily. Stay safe. Stay humble.🙏❤ Much love😊🙏